One of the most embarrassing things ever happened to me: for two weeks I was trying to figure out why one script does not work like expected… only to find out (yes, in two weeks!), that I have been modifying one copy and running another!!!
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This interview was recorded in October, and I was told it will be published sometime in the beginning of January, so by mid-February I almost forgot about it. But here it is – in today’s Huffington Post Women in Business section.
I will be honest – am shamelessly proud of this publication, and I really hope that it will help me to promote my ideas at work, and to accomplish all these great and wonderful things I am dreaming about:)
Recently I had several occasions when I would start to think: is it a gender thing? Should the way I am perceived be attributed to the fact, that I am a female? Is it “a Sheryl Sandberg thing”?
Because, see, on one hand we are being told: be bold about your achievements, talk to your manager, say that you need a raise. And at the same time, nobody can argue Sandberg’s quote about “when a man is seen as a strong leader, a woman is seen as a bitch”. So… yea, quite often it happens, that women are encouraged to talk about themselves and their achievements… until they actually do start talking!
On the other hand… It’s very easy to start feeling you’ve being discriminated. Very easy to dismiss all the constructive criticism you receive from your coworkers as “this is just a gender thing, this is just because I am a female”. Because sometimes we actually can be rude and inconsiderate.
When I talk to people about different anti-discrimination acts, like when I talk about the Pride parades or affirmative actions, I always say: this is a pendulum effect. You need to twist things the opposite way to make sure they eventually come to balance.
But – not always. What I am saying, it’s not always a pendulum effect. Sometimes a person can actually be too loud, too judgmental, too much “being sure she’s always right”. There is never a one and true recipe of how to balance it all correctly. I often get upset, when I receive negative feedback, but I tough myself to suppress this immediate reaction and try to think objectively. Even if there is a “Sheryl Sandberg thing”, is there anything I can actually correct in my behavior?
One important thing I’ve recently realized is this: a couple of years ago I could joke about “my way is the right way” or “if it’s not for me, it’s not important”, and people would take it as a joke. But when you are in a leadership position, you can’t joke like this anymore. People will take it literally, and it will be too late to say: I didn’t really mean this! Ana I still have a lot of learning to do…
I forgot to repost it early, and today, when I finally got to update my blog, I am shamelessly promoting myself;
Getting to Know: Tech
Want to know more about the folks who call Enova home? We asked Enova’s Software Engineering Technical Lead Henrietta Dombrovskaya our five favorite “get to know you better” questions, and here’s what she had to say:
How did you come to work at Enova?
A friend of mine sent me an email: “I know you only recently switched jobs, but the company my husband works at is looking for an experienced database administrator. Are you interested?”
While my move to Enova was motivated more by getting out of my old job than the new position, I quickly came to love it here! Both the people and the environment won me over very quickly!
What do you do at Enova?
My current role is the Database Development Tech Lead for Software Engineering, and believe it or not, what I actually spend most of my time doing is talking! I’m not sure how I ended up in this situation, but apparently I can do it quite well, despite not being a native speaker.
What’s the best part of working at Enova?
The freedom! It feels like I can do whatever I want at Enova, and pursue my interests every day! Luckily, it turns out that the projects I want to pursue are good for the company! I also love having the opportunity to participate in international conferences.
If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?
I believe it would still be Chicago. Oh, and I would love to have instant transportation to Helsinki!
What are your top three desert island must-haves?
- Computer with Internet access
I will be in Austin May 12-13, and will be talking at Austin PUG on May 13 – if for anybody this is closer than Chicago 🙂
So, now, two weeks after I am finally posting about my presentation in Moscow. First I wanted to wait till the recording of my talk will be available. Now, when I have it, I am not sure whether I really want to distribute it…
Let me begin from the beginning:). First, this presentation took place in a way bigger auditorium than the one in Saint Petersburg. The number of people attending was not as big, as usual, which made it look like in general there are less people listening. My husband warned be beforehand that I won’t be able to address the first two rows the same way I did in the U of SPb, and that was, indeed the case. Also, there were no students at ll, which makes me less exited in any case… And one more thing – I’ve invited a person whom I knew from PG Conf to come, and he said, he will, and when I didn’t see him, and saw just a couple of people I knew I’ve started panicing, that I won’t be able to establish a good contact with audience. And I’ve being in panic for the first 20 minutes, till people started to react.
Turned out, that this person who promised to come and invite his friends, did invite them, although he didn’t make it himself, so after a while I’ve located them, and they started to react and life became better:)
I any case, I think I am going to ask a person, who did a recording, to share the source with me, so that I can make a smaller presentation out of it, removing Russian in the beginning and at the end, some pauses and some of my mumbling 🙂
For those of my friends and co-workers, who want to see the “unabridged” presentation – please email me!